Wednesday, August 30, 2006
ever have the feeling that you are stuck in a situation where whatever the next action you take will leave you in a bad spot? well, i'm facing it now. and the feeling totally sucks. it's like i want to do something about the situation but i'm afraid that if i do something, anything, the person will flare up again. and if i do nothing i will start thinking about alot of bad things. i hope the person will forget about it and let things be like it was in the past. but deep down, some part of me will be happy if things don't turn out okay.got back report slips today. didn't do really well. but didn't expect to get As. oh well. i really have to work very hard now for the next one month.my best friend in singapore is very sick now. i really hope she gets well soon. miss her so much. will be praying for her. dad is in korea now and my brother is acting like he's the head of the family. he always is like that when my dad goes overseas. odering my mum around, insisting that i must let him do things his way and letting him use everything first. who does he think he is? he's the youngest in the family and yet he is doing this.i feel so bad about treating that person that way. things were okay about a year or two ago but then it suddenly went haywire and i ended up hurting someone. that person's even one of my best friends. i can't stand seeing that person like this. it's like that person can never forget about it. i really blame myself for bringing this upon that person. i really hope i'll be forgiven. if i could change the past, i wouldn't have made things turn out this way. i feel terrible. but there's nothing i can do about it. i'm sorry.
the GREEN damsel. at 9:28 PM